I can imagine retreating to a small corner of my spa haven and finding my little piece of heaven. I’ll toss the spa covers and let the bubbles rise. Sprinkle a few rose petals and a few drops of scent. Light some candles and turn up a little music.

I will slip under the rosy foam, close my eyes and just relax. That feels good.

These past days, I’ve been keeping  relaxing imagery like these handy whenever I’m feeling a little stressed. I don’t really want to indulge in a spa alone so I just do it in my head.

I say I’m feeling a little stressed because I’ve set a deadline for myself and sometimes I get anxious if I’m gonna make it. Remember the “little projects,” I’ve been mentioning in a few posts?

Well those projects are part of my goal to become a work at home mom. Jamaine is starting school next year and I want to be a WAHM before then.

I want to be able to work on my own time so I can take her to school and be there for her when dismissal time comes. I want to be home to teach her lessons and play games.  I want to be there for her as she crosses this important milestone in her life.

When I become a WAHM, I can spend more time with Kalia. I can go out on dates with Kernan any day of the week. I can be there for my family.

My projects have been starting to take off and I believe I can make it. I just have to deal with this panicky feeling that I get at times so I can just keep focusing and taking action.

It’s going to be a big leap. After all, people would always say that staying in a regular job is the most sensible thing to do. But every day, I feel that there has got to be a better way. And I know working from home is the better way.  I just need to do it and I will get there someday.

In the meantime, I will relax and let the worries float away.

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