“Mommy, ‘wag ka na mag-office.” Jamaine tugs at my arm with a pleading face.
“Baby, mommy needs to work so we’ll have money to buy you food, to pay for the house, and save up for school.”
“Wag na,” she’ll say.
I’ll try to explain to her again but she won’t budge.
“I’ll get money from the office so I can buy you pasalubong later.”
I always try to avoid using that line of reasoning but it works all the time. And when I come home, she does remember to ask for pasalubong. Although if I did forget, she would forgive just as easily.
The anxiety of having to work full time away from home has been with me since Jamaine was born. But let’s face it, we need a double income to sustain the family that’s why I took on a regular job to help pay the bills.
I like my job, I just don’t like how it eats so much of my time in one day. I like to work, I just need to learn how to work smarter.
Since last year, I’ve been trying to figure out how to earn a stable income from home. I’d go on and off working on a project with very little results. It gets discouraging at times. But I always remind myself that I just have to keep learning and moving forward until I make it.
In the meantime, I’m training myself to have a “save more and spend less” attitude because it’s the only way I can have more money immediately. I haven’t shopped in months and I’m putting off buying all unnecessary “wants” on my wishlist.
Tomorrow’s grocery day and I promise myself I’ll stick to my list and consider picking some best buy items over branded ones.
The good thing is I’m starting to work on my little money project again and I have a good feeling I’m finally doing it right. I’m excited to see this thing finally work.
And when it does, I’m gonna be so excited for the day when I can finally tell Jamaine, “Mommy doesn’t have office today.” 
