Fighting the flab

Warning: this is a very vain post.Â

After a month of doing Bikram Yoga, I finally got bored and decided I needed a new workout. So I dug up my old boxing gloves and headed for the gym.

I have been going for the past week and I have to admit it hasn’t been easy. Waking up early in the morning when you’ve had a late night taking care of the baby is a real tough challenge. It’s a good thing hubby has been patiently waking me up and encouraging me to move along.

I know exercise is supposed to pump up your endorphins and get you in a happy mood.

For the past days though, I’ve been feeling a bit down.

I have a confession to make: I’m still having issues with my body.

It frustrates me how slow my progress is and how fast our wedding date is arriving.

I don’t mind the marks on my body. I don’t like them and I do wish I could get rid of these damn stretch marks but I’m slowly accepting the fact that they are part of motherhood. I rather see them as battle scars to prove that I can make it through a tough journey.

The flabs are the ones that really get to me.

I’ve never had flabs.

I was born thin and blessed with a fast metabolism. I could eat anything I want and not gain weight. I could wear practically anything I wanted without having to worry if my arms look huge or if my stomach bulges out.

I had a relatively healthy body image.

When I reached a point that I really needed to slim down a bit, I just popped some herbal pills and I was all good.

I think what really frustrates me now is the fact that I never had to work this hard to shape up.

I never had to look in my closet and get frustrated at all the clothes I couldn’t wear.

I never had to hear people saying, “Tumaba ka. (You got fat.)”

Sometimes I feel like putting a sign on my stomach saying “Don’t tell me. Just delivered baby six months ago and trying to get back in shape.” (And telling me that I got fat is not helping at all!)

My friends would attest that I’m one of the most positive people around. Before, I can get by aching muscles, bleeding knuckles and crumbling knees in a breeze. But right now, I don’t want to pretend that I’m feeling okay because I’m not.

One thing I learned from years of “suppressing feelings”: if you want to get over it, let it go.

So there, I’ve said it.

Tomorrow, I’ll feel better and hit the gym even harder.

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9 Responses to “Fighting the flab”

atomicgirl (9 comments.) October 18th, 2007 at 1:25 am

Awww… Don’t feel so bad. I’ve actually been inspired by your will to lose weight. In fact, when I try to do Tae-bo (which I’ve only done for 7minutes twice in two weeks), I think about how you had the patience and the drive to go through the whole yoga thingie. So just keep it up. And you still look good no matter what.

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ris (25 comments.) October 18th, 2007 at 1:40 am

haha.. i feel for you jayme. bakit kailangan pa that women’s bodies change after giving birth?

so sabi ko nga sarili ko, if all else fails, magd-drugs nalang ako! hehehe

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Jayme October 18th, 2007 at 4:46 am

@ Atomicgirl: Salamat ha…. If it were not for our upcoming wedding, I wouldn’t feel so stressed about it. Pero kakayanin ko ‘to! Goodluck din sa Taebo mo, ang importante may ginagawa ka pa ring effort to take care of your body. :D
@ Ris: Oo nga eh, sometimes I think, why can’t our bodies just spring back into shape. Dati herbal pills ang sinubukan ko and it worked really well. Kaya lang I’m still trying to continue breastfeeding ngayon kaya di puwede. Kailangan exercise talaga. Haaay….Lord help me. :D

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ris (25 comments.) October 18th, 2007 at 7:46 am

i tried something din before and it was really effective, kaya lang lethal stuff pala yun, hehe. ah you’re still breastfeeding pala. tama, wag muna and besides, they say you easily lose weight when you’re breastfeeding diba? i think it worked for me for a while (i didn’t continue na kasi a little over a month lang ako nag-lactate because i wasn’t always with mia then). so good luck sa pag-breastfeed! :)

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dru (6 comments.) October 18th, 2007 at 10:52 am

Happiness also affects your size. :) The healthier people are those who laugh more than others. hehehe :D Don’t worry though, it’s part of having children. It’s not negative at all.

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joanjoyce (3 comments.) October 19th, 2007 at 5:18 am

sis jayme compared to me sexy ka noh and you look fab kaya lang nga pressure talaga ang wedding para sa D day e hottie pag rampa sa church hehehe sana magkaron din ako ng will to loose the flabs to think na 5 years ago na ko nanganak e para pa din akong juntiz hehehe.. congrats and best wishes ha and if inde umabot sa target weight daanin na lang sa attitude sister :D

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Jayme October 19th, 2007 at 11:02 am

@ Ris: Thanks ha. Pero ewan ko ba kung bakit di ako masyado pumayat because of breastfeeding. Medyo nag-diminish na nga ang supply ko at mukhang matitigil na rin. :(

@ Dru: You’re right. There are a lot of things I can be happy about. I just need to focus on them more. :D

@ Joan: Naku sis, I believe lahat tayo fab regardless of size. :D Medyo na-down lang talaga ako lately. Flabby to hottie in a little more than a month….haay…challenge talaga ito! Pero kakayanin ko talaga. Tama ka, praktisin ko rin ang “hottie attitude” ko.

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Blog theme and gym therapy - All Jayme October 19th, 2007 at 11:25 am

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Amor (1 comments.) November 27th, 2007 at 5:23 pm

My son is 2 years 8 months already, but I still look every inch pregnant! Ouch… naiinis na talaga ako, ang takaw ko rin kc, tapos wala pang masyadong exercise at walang disiplina sa sarili kaya manigas ako, pero sana matutunan kong magkaron ng disiplina sa sarili no?, just like you para mabawasan naman katabaan ko… wala na akong maisuot eh! :D

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