I could cry.
Hubby left for somewhere far away yesterday. And now it’s sinking in that he’ll be away for quite a long time. Seven days actually. Maybe not very long for some, but to me it is. Very long.
As I always say, it’s easier for the one who leaves than the one who gets left behind.
I spent the whole morning yesterday getting last minute stuff for his luggage. I had to go to the office so I met up with him before their van left for the airport. I was doing okay until I got off work. I felt the loneliness creep in as I rode the jeep home. We usually go home together.
When I arrived home, my babies greeted me with their usual bouncy cheer. That eased the sadness a bit. But when we went up to the bedroom. I felt sad again. Night time was usually our playing time with the kids. I had to try to be as cheerful as possible so the kids won’t get sad too.
It didn’t help that we had no way to call hubby. He said he’ll buy a new SIM before they board their connecting flight. But it was already way past their expected arrival time and there was still no call. I didn’t worry, I knew they were safe. I just missed him so much.
And so after the kids fell asleep, I just let it all out. I was crying as I sent him an email. Hopefully, he’ll get to read it and respond in case there really was no way to call. I would wake up every two hours or so and instinctively check my phone for calls or messages.
I realized couples who go on long distance relationships have it tough. Maybe even tougher for families whose moms or dads are OFW abroad. This is the reason why we agreed early on in our marriage that we’ll never ever go abroad and leave family behind for work.
Finally, before I left for the office this morning, I checked my email and saw that he had already responded. Apparently their flight had problems and they got stranded during the night. He can only buy a new SIM in the morning when the stores open. That sent a wave of relief over me.
I feel much better now. I can get through it after all. I can only imagine how much tougher it will be when he leaves again in a few months and be gone for 45 days. Then again, I’m getting ahead of myself. Let’s take this one day at a time.
One night down, six more to go.
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I understand how lonely you feel. I used to cry whenever my dad leaves for a few months work. He worked at a mine in Northern Luzon. I’d get used to it after sometime. He usually comes home for a week or a month break, then the whole process starts again.
Anyway, hang in there and take it one day at a time. Soon, he’ll be back with you and the family.
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Thanks kayni.
I don’t even want to imagine how it feels like if your loved one’s gone for a month.
Aw…I know how you feel.
I am thankful hubby’s work abroad offers family status. If not, I don’t think he’d take it. Mahirap ang long distance relationship.
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Good for you Josiet.
That’s why I have high respect for people who manage to stay together despite the long distance. That’s certainly tough.
I can relate with how you feel, although not that much. My angel is off for a team building for three days. And it just feels lonesome knowing that he is far.
The same with you, I am also not into working abroad and leaving my family home. Probably that is the reason why even if there were a number of opportunities abroad, I never get delighted by it.
It was real hard to be apart from your love one, even just for a day or two.
I know. Days feel like weeks diba? Especially if you and your angel are together everyday then you suddenly find yourself alone. Hay. Just a few more to go. Kaya natin ‘to.
I just saw this post… and I do feel for you. It was a year na nagkahiwalay kami ni Robert because we wanted to start prepping for our time to stay in the Phils for good… but now he’s back and I am soooo happy!!!
Sabi ko sa kanya, it was a difficult time for us and I am hoping na hindi na ito maulit… as in ksi ang hirap-hirap talaga…
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