The storm has finally passed.
Jamaine is getting better everyday, her coughs have been reduced to the barest minimum and her colds have gone completely.
It still pains me when I think about how she looked at the height of her cough and cold attack: her eyes red and swollen from crying, her nose red from the colds and her body weak from all the coughing. She had a couple of scary vomiting spells during the night, afterwhich she’d cry as if pleading for me to take away her sickness. I’d try to lull her to sleep well into the wee hours of the morning only to wake up hour after hour. She’d cry and cough, cry and cough. And when I couldn’t hold it in any longer I would turn off the lights and I would cry with her, praying for her to finally get better.
I can only thank God every morning for helping us get through those trying nights. I realize how much painful motherhood can sometimes be when your child is in pain and you watch helplessly, desperately wanting to take it all away.
And I know this won’t be the last time I’d feel that way. There’s still a long way to go and more challenges to come. And I will be ready for them.
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I know this is too early, but it just crossed my mind. You worried terribly, of course, when she caught cold but I was wondering, have you ever imagined far into the future?
Like, when she would start talking about boys and then finally ask you if she can have a boyfriend already?
Now wouldn’t that be something to worry about?
Just thinking.
glad to hear..jamaine’s okay na. It was hard for her but it’s much difficult for you seeing her in pain and feeling mo walang kang magawa. Pero Jayms, you did a lot..am sure Jamaine felt every inch of comfort you extended.
and she’s lucky to have you as her Mom.
hmmm oo nga parang binibiyak talaga ang damdamin natin pag nakikita natin ang ating mga anak na naghihirap sa sakit. halong awa, frustration at kung anu-ano pa ang nararamdaman. dumadaan naman lahat sila sa ganyan at tayo rin nagigng beterano na sa ganyang krisis. and we learn to be more careful at sila naman lumalaki and learn to deal with seasonal illnesses.
hey! long time no post ah.. hope you and your baby are doing great!
Hi Papa Ces, Mai, Selvo and Ris!
I’ve been gone for so long and I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting my visitors.
Isa sa mga New Year’s resolution ko ang mag blog regularly. Hope I can keep it.