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New week, new challenges

A new week has begun. And with it comes my new home, new baby and new life.

We moved in to our new apartment last Saturday. We’ve managed to clear all our boxes and arrange all our stuff in two days. Though the house is still bare and begging to be decorated, we’re settled in comfortably. It’s slowly beginning to feel more like home every day. I’m eager to decorate the house but, right now, I still don’t have the energy (or the time) for it.

I’ll get down to decorating once I’m fully recovered and out of pain relievers. Flanax is still my bestfriend for the past days but I can feel that we’ll part ways really soon. Though I know it would take longer for me to feel “normal” again, I’m just looking forward to the day when I’ll wake up pain – free.

I have also been bonding a lot with our new baby. Kalia is mostly well-tempered just like Jamaine but sometimes she has mini – “terror” episodes when she’ll suddenly cry in her sleep. She’s also more vocal when she’s hungry or wet so I’m more on guard anticipating her needs and moods.

I’m still learning though how to equally divide time and attention between Jamaine and Kalia.
It’s a good thing that Jamaine received Kalia’s arrival well. She was actually excited when we arrived from the hospital and kept saying “Baby! Baby!” while pointing to Kalia.

But, over the past days, I could see that she’s starting to feel neglected because I don’t carry her or play with her as much as before. I’m breastfeeding Kalia which means we’re practically tied to each other most of the day.

I’ve also observed that Jamaine becomes whiny sometimes which I figure must be due to the decreased attention she’s been getting. I imagine she must be starting to have feelings of jealousy and confusion that might be quite overwhelming for her at this time. So she resorts to tantrums to vent them.

On the other hand, I am dealing with feelings of guilt when I can’t attend to her as much as I used to. When she approaches me and gestures that she wants to be carried or to go out, I’d have to ask her Daddy or her yaya to take her because I’m taking care of Kalia. Plus, my body is still not up to carry her yet.

Hopefully, we’ll both be able to adjust soon.

This week also marks the beginning of my journey to fitness and weight loss. Hopefully, after my post partum check up, my OB will give the go signal for Pilates. I want to trim my tummy significantly by the end of the month and Pilates is one of the exercises that I know I can manage with my limited energy.

Still, I keep reminding myself to set realistic goals for my body. That after a month, I’d still look a little bit pregnant and that’s okay.

I’m in for a challenging week and, I have to admit, I’m feeling a bit depressed sometimes. But I’m trying to take things in stride.

I’m journaling a lot, reading my “happy books” and watching my feel – good movies. I’ve been through this before and I know I can do this again.

Though taking care of my two babies, my husband and myself can be quite daunting, I keep in mind that I’m a strong woman and I can do this! (Once more with feeling! )

Are you facing any challenges this week?

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My internet connection has yet to be relocated to the new apartment, thus, my absence. Will post more regularly when everything’s fixed by the end of the week.

I miss hopping to your blogs and reading all about your updates. Hope you’re all having a great week.

Posted in: Motherhood

Tags: baby, fitness, Motherhood, postpartum blues, weight loss

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